he other day I watched a show on Netflix called “Special about a guy with Cerebral palsy who is also gay. This was sort of weird to me because its 2019 and before this I haven’t really seen many shows like it, There always seems to be shows or movies about overcoming disability or accepting ones self as gay or trans or a whole host of other things but what seems to lack are the actors who are also a part of these groups. as much as I love representation we are not representing people the right way there are many disabled and gay and trans actors as there are also many other groups who I would pay to go see but what i hate to see is experience discounted because Hollywood would rather sell tickets then tell truth and be authentic, this to me is not acceptable
You know special has made me think about things a bit one being was how I hate Cerebral palsy some days it is painful and I look weird and I get odd people giving me commentary like they don’t think i notice. Somehow people seem to think I a m oblivious to my life experience which most days is funny but sometimes when I am alone at home its not funny and some days I curse it all but immediately after that and for 80% of the rest of the time I think of how much I love my CP, how its has been the best teacher and about persevering despite odds, about love and compassion for others and of self. Being Gay and also having CP is funny as fuck but also sucks because I am never sure if my body is going to decide to have a sense of humor or not and my legs will lock up or my back will hurt or I will loose balance and fall. This is a cosmic gamble which I find funny… Most days. others often times CP makes me happy and sad and I would never trade a minute of it because this is all experience and the universe has its reasons and I am determined to be what the Universe has asked of me
. Un-apologeticly myself
Welcome to Chrisverse
So here we are, a new blog. People start blogs all the time for a variety of reasons and with many intentions so I will tell you in this first post a bit about me and what my intent is with starting this project. I suppose there are two things that are important that have added some color and flair to my life and those are that I have Cerebral Palsy and I am Gay. I know your thinking “oh god here we go another story of overcoming adversity to be normal or acceptance of self” If I were a women maybe Nancy Mckeon could play me in a lifetime movie. This is not going to be that kind of story at least not all together but that may sometimes bleed in. What I want this blog to be is am entertaining and honest look into my own personal universe filled with observations, funny stories, thoughts on current events and a whole lot of fun. I have always been fascinated by people and the stories they have and it occurs to me that I have my own tales to tell. Which brings me to my nest reason for starting this thing, This is going to help me write my book. Every time I start blindly writing a book i stop cause I run out of steam or i am not organized enough so I figure as time goes on I will have enough stories and insights to put into a book or two who knows. we will see where this takes us for half the fun is in the journey
so cheers and welcome to my mind its a fun place to be.
new post coming soon